Hello there old friend,

I love this old journal. Wow, look at all the thoughts I have poured out in the last few years. This journal is one of the most important treasure I own. It is a piece of who I am. I know I will lose my memory, one day, to Alzheimers but I will not completely be gone...I am too stubborn for that. I shall remain here for those who wonder what kind of person I was and the journey I took to get there.

It never cease to amaze me how human life evolves. Seasons keep chaning and people keep experience new things everyday. I feel sorry for those who have lost all hope. I feel sorry for those who remained a lump of nothing that slowly deteriorates back to nothing. For those people, it would not have mattered much if they live or die because even though they live in body form, their soul have died.

I have been thinking today. All the textbooks I've read, all the lectures I've sat through on human development, I feel growth taking place before my eyes. At this moment, I want to grab hold of life and tell it to "HEY SLOW DOWN!" I feel the world moving at a faster and faster pace, I see the changes happening. All is happening so fast around me. Entering college, making new friends, fighting with friends, crying in my dorm, becoming family, debates, lectures, frustrations, fear, endurance, loyalty, failures, late nights, inner searching, knowing God, building relationships, and falling in love....sometimes I think the current me is the final project. I am NOT the final project! I am a new me but not the final me.

People who are captive to the same fear they had years ago do not see hope. I was once those people. By God's grace, I found a way out. I guess after all this big senseless talk, I just want to make one whopping point....

Things will change, it's part of life. MOve on...let go, celebrate.
My taste have changed, my priorities have changed, and my person have changed. Expecting people to stay the same is moranic. Instead of expecting other things to evolve around us, we need to readjust our attitude around it. Sometimes, it's sad say, when things changes and our commonality is gone, it's just gone. My advice to you if you remotely follow what I am saying is, "let go." "let go of the past and embrace the next best thing." I am not talking about money. I am talking about the wonderful human experiences. Don't waste your time on searching for happiness. Don't waste your time on something you can see because it is not there.

Sam