Have you ever thought you've manifested into a worse version of yourself?  I think I have.  Lately I have been complacent in my walk with God, been having angry thoughts, and are not too happy about where I am at in life.  I find it embarrassing that I am experiencing an identity crisis at the age of 23.  lately I've had many doubts about my life and I don't exactly know what I want anymore.  To say more accurately, I don't know what God has planned for me.  What if the relationship I am in isn't what he intended?  What if he asked me to give up school?  I think these thoughts and feelings were brought on by the fact that I feel scared about all these changes in my life.  Do I trust that everything will be alright if he takes away my relationship, my most cheerished possessions?  Do I have enough strength to trust that he has a better plan for me?  Sometimes I get mad at myself that I have not made other solid friendships that can be my support network.  If God indeed has a different plan for me, I am definately loss at knowing what comes next in my life.  Have I been consumed in this relationship?  Have I completely loss myself and who I am?  I am really scared.