You know, people can really break or make your day. Today I went to lab at LCC and I saw a guy in the elevator. He was crippled so he was in a wheel chair. At the end of the elevator ride, he smiled at all of us and said, "have a good day." That was so wonderful. I am thinking, wow. I need attitude like that. Despite his disability, he didn't let it overtake him on the inside. Then I went to lab feeling really good. My bench partners and I have to innoculate microbes today. I felt so intimadated and scared to mess things up, especially in front of them. By the end of the lab, I felt horrible. They were not very friendly, or understanding. They frequently rush me in lab cause they know what they were doing. I could tell they didn't want to work with me and they think I don't know what I am doing. To make things worse, my lab instructor told me that I need to learn how to work together in a team. She said that it's important to real life. It made me feel HORRIBLE as a nursing major. It's things like that that makes me doubt myself. I am capable, I am smart, I am willing, but I am also scared. I freeze up thinking that I can't do it because of these qualities about myself. I am absentminded sometimes....what if I forget my patient's medicine at the needed time? What if I can't work with people? What if I mess up? huh.....questions to ponder.
Sam