This life stuff is hard. Is there a manuel out there that tells you how to run your life because I am having the biggest headache from trying to figure out what's right. Ben and I have been arguing a lot lately about what comes next after I graduate. Should we go to seminary in the fall or the spring? When should we have kids? What about health insurance if we decide to have a kid but have no job? Should I go back to school for a degree that is more marketable? These are all tough questions that doesn't have a simple answer. When Ben and I argue about this stuff, neither of us has the right answer even though we think we know. We try to convince the other person that our value is much more important than the other. At the end of all that, we both feel the other is selfish and unyielding. How do you deal with that? Of course, my first reaction is that I have to submit to my husband because I am the wife. It is a biblical thing to do right? Sure it is....I muffled those words under my breaths knowing that my heart does not want to conform. I can't help but feel sense of loss for self. I feel very restricted and that I am under my husband's timing, not mine. The limitations, the compromising, the agonizing pain of deciding what's right is driving me up the wall. I need God provision...and I want it now. As you can see, there are still sins in my life that I have not learn to overcome. If you have some good suggestions, I would love to hear it. huhh....