I think the more I learn about the world, the more I become afraid of the many things that could happen to us. So today I had the thought of "what if Ben got into a car accident and become paralyzed." (Actually this thought comes to my mind very often) The scary thing about this senerio is that I can't take care of us if that should ever happen. I can't provide a consistent income for us and there is no way we can afford to hire people to take care of Ben while I work. I know this because I am a physical assistance for Jim. Without workers compensation or disability insurance, we would probably be on medicaid. Ben would have to live in a nursing home and he and I would be separated. I know if this happens, Ben would rather die than try to cope with the problem. Isn't that a horrible thought? So this leads to my next thought, there is not one thing we can control in this life, NOT ONE. What makes us so sure of tomorrow? hehe. Sorry about the random thought.