You know what makes me really sad? Failed friendships. It makes me really sad to hear some people tell me that "yea...we don't talk anymore." I think it's so sad because it's like part of your memories with that person is, in a way...lost. For those of you who truly has people in your life that you are definately sure will be there till the end, I envy you. Keep it and cherish it. To Jared, I say you beat me on this one...bad. I am so sad cause little memories of me are here, there, and everywhere. There's a little in Vietnam, a little in the philipines, a little at Cordova Courts, a little at South Lake, and now here. I don't keep in touch with anyone of these people besides friends in college. huhhh. I think Michy said something really wise that I will never forget. She said, "if they are your true friends," you don't have to see them all the time. I guess this is true. God has control over who is in my life. It's really true. Take Michy for example. I known her 5 years ago...don't remember. We busted tables together for two years, got separated for a while, and then came to the same college, got separated for a while, worked at the same restaurant again, and kept in touch again. Weird. If it's not God, who is it? I really believe that I will never get rid of Michelle..hehe. j/k. I know no matter where we end up, we will still remain friends. I guess I have this fear of being forgotten. Maybe I wasn't a secure baby when I was little since my mom left me for work all the time. Maybe it's all excuses. In the end, I wish to do better. I wish to love and not be afraid. I wish to give my heart away to people that wants it knowing the risk that it could be taken away to who knows where. I guess all I am saying is, five or ten years from now, I still like to see you guys at my wedding. Five or tens years from now, I would like to hold your child in my arms. Five or ten years from now, I hope to not be forgotten.

Your incredibly sappy sam