Tuesday, April 16, 2002

Sometimes I reflect back into the past and I am amazed at the changes in my life. It is hard to imagine I once had those thoughts, those mentalities, those feelings, those fears. Thinking about those old memories, I feel proud of how far I came. I remember I always wanted to learn how to swim. I wanted someone to teach me so badly but I was never able to learn. It was a great dissappointment in my life because it was one less thing i could not do no matter how hard I tried. As I grew older, I had the opportunity to take swimming lessons. I took the opportunity and signed myself up for swim class. I remember I was around the age of 10 while everyone else was half my age. I didn't care cause I learned to swim. Another obstacle I had was learning how to ride a bike. For some reason, I was a slower learner than everyone else. Maybe it's because no one really taught me how to do things. I had to learn all on my own. I remember of falling a lot when I first learned. I also had many bruises and scratches on my legs because of the constant falls. I practiced and practiced until I get how to do it right. It took me many years to learn. I remember riding on JW's bike. That thing was massive to me and I was so proud because I could get on it. Those were only a few example of things I overcome. As I conquer each one of them, I feel more proud and more confident in myself. When I was younger, I always wish I had parents that takes me to the soccor game or ecouraged me to try out for volleyball. I wanted my parents to be supportive of me and teach me everything. They never did. What they ended up teaching me from an early start was how to achieve my own goals. That was a valuable lesson to learn. There are things I still have to conquer and fears to overcome. One of them is feelings of not being good enough of God's mercy and blessings. I still have to believe that God has good plans for me even if I can't see it in my future. One day, I will look back and see that God has been giving me the best of everything.


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