There are days when the sky grew cloudy where it's hard to tell from night and day. (Miss Saigon) It is these kinds of days that makes me dream....Dream of going away. Dream of flying to places where there will be blue skies and morning sun. I long...long to fill this void in my heart. I long to fill it with joy, and peace. I have God. I love God but when will I find it once again? Lately, bad news are clouding over me and I feel like it is building up inside as if it is about to storm. Maybe I am grieving. Maybe i am coping. Although God is near me, I still wonder why. I patiently wait for him. There are so much my soul wants to speak of but will it be a sign of weakness? One question I want to ask is, will you stay? Will you stay after knowing me and all my sadnesses? Will you be there to help me through? I am not going to hide. I am going to be real. I feel very lonely. Which one of you is going to BE REAL? I know u have your problems!! Why doesn't anyone want to talk? I feel so suffocated inside myself. We see but do we feel? We have ears but do we listen? Let's just play hide and seek. How do we cope? What is your way of dealing? coping? For me, it's running. Keep moving and you won't think. Keep busy. Keep distracted and maybe this will take away some of the pain.