I feel so lost, so confused, and so frustrated. I am so uncertain of the future and what it holds. I am anxious to get my ticket so I can go and see the world. Maybe I been feeling like this lately cause I am so dissappointed. Dissappointed with my life in the past and in the present. I am so dissappointed that I accomplished nothing with my life. I am dissappointed with the relationships that I've built and I am dissappointed that everything I thought I knew fell apart on me. Surprisingly, I haven't fallen apart yet. I am mad, I am angry, and I am scared. I am mad at myself cause I don't have dicipline. I am mad at myself for being shaken in my foundation. I am mad at myself for giving in to what I hold true to. I am mad at myself for allowing things to shake me.