I think i am getting really homesick again. Suddenly sadness is clouding over me. I don't know what it is, but it feels like someone literally took my stomach and wrung it out. All I want to do is to run home and get beneath the covers of my bed and sleep. Maybe I could travel..just backpacking to different part of the world all by myself. There's so much to do yet I feel completey useless as to what God wants to do with my life. Again it feels like I am on a stand still and I am here here wasting away. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. Maybe this silent venting will make me feel much better on the inside. Who do I confide in? I feel so trapped inside my own skin. I want to get out. I will take a walk.