I feel like my heart is being torn to pieces over and over again. When will it stop Lord? When will things finally be right? Like what Amy Grant said,

So much pain don’t know the reason why
I cry until the tears run dry
nothing you can make you understand
one thing that you held so dear is slipping from your hands...
and you say...why why why...
does it goes this way...

Yesterday I thought I seen it all
I thought I climbed the highest wall
and now I see the learning never ends
and all I know to do is keep on walking
walking around the bend

The learning never ends. Asking for forgivness and the power to fight against the bad times may be an everyday occurances. I wonder why. Why do some people have less problems? When will I finally stop struggling with my human sin? It's hard to see that God has answers to all of our questions. It's so hard.